Cheating is so easy, especially when she doesn’t know she wanted to cheat. It happens suddenly, smoothly and even unconsciously. Her husband stops complimenting her, he barely gave her what she desired most- his attention. The only thing that seemed like attention now, were slaps, corrections and shouts. Things that were beckoning the demons he had planted in her to surface.
Giving in to the demons raging inside of her, she succumbed to the attention a stranger gave her, blushed at a strangers compliments, and even began to care in her heart for the said stranger.
She doesn’t want to, but she did give him a chance to grow on her, and he did. Oh, yes he did. The first time they made love was nothing but a mistake, a mistake that ended up making them both feel horrible. Her husband, she thought… She had just betrayed her husband. She could stop, she decided. Pretend it never happened, and just move on, continue loving her husband. Sounds easy, doesn’t it? She could have given in to the demons by committing suicide, she could even have committed murder. Instead, she took a step that made her feel whole again, alive even. Mere memories of that encounter with the stranger made her yearn for many more.
Easy to forget him, she repeats for the millionth time. Well, it wasn’t as easy as words. Her heart had stopped loving the man she vowed to always love, without even realizing it. She had begun to care more for the stranger than she did her husband.
When had she become this woman, this adulterer? How did she miss the battle going on deep inside of her? Or maybe she had just ignored it?
The unhappiness, the tears, the excuses she made on his behalf. She should have listened to herself when she had the chance, she should have voiced out her bitterness, she ought to have stood her ground and never made him lay a finger on her in the filthiest possible way. She should have known it was over, long before it ever started. She should have accepted her truth.
Now, she has an unhappy and violent husband who blames her for his misfortunes, and a stranger… A stranger she made a mistake with, but cannot get out of her system…
...Con Amor
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